when i l0ok at you

hey..hey..hey....

wanna share this video to you guys...

its from "The last song" movie...

i dont even watch it yet...sigh~~ i never heard this song before..sad~~ i should have!! because its the same author for "The notebook"

 

and "A walk to remember"

 

but im gonna watch it tonite coz m0od still "berbunga2" LOL..

pleeaaaseeee listen to this and u'll know how beautiful it is...



k lah...chow now....nak layan movie tu...pastu nak usha these movies lak...haiihhh...lambat tol..

 

owh....yang ni dah tgk..

 

hey.....apasal sume poster lebey kurang ni....

 

2 years already!!!

Malam ni mood berbunga2...

Happy 2nd Anniversary!!

wo...

wo...wo....wo.....


lama wo tak update blog....rindu wooo....

will write later la...

tetibe malas...


daaa~~~

Hi guys..

have you seen this video??



its really emotional right? i couldn't watch this video without crying..you know why?? because something that happened last week...something that i could say, related to this video..as soon as "it" happened on my way to office, it really changed me..what was "it"?? what was really happened...i watched this video after "it" happened.

untuk melancarkan cerita, aku tulis dlm bahasa melayu sudeeeyyyy...............hihi


pagi tu, aku dalam lrt dari KL sentral to kelana jaya...kat stesen bangsar, rasanya laa, x berapa ingat sangat, a blind guy entered the same coach with me...and bila dia masuk je dalam tu, dia terus meluru laju kat 1 seat kosong that i dont even know how he knew that the seat kosong...well im a super duper paranoid girl, thinking that dia pura2 buta..coz yeah he brought the tongkat but he didnt use it..memang masa mula2 dia masuk, he's just rushing to the seat y memang dibiarkan kosong oleh2 orang2 disitu y xde keinginan nak duduk..cam aku la..

so all the way, i was really think that the blind guy wasnt really blind. kenapa aku boley terpikir camtu? sebab terpengaruh ngan sorang makcik yang aku jumpa 3 days before that day...dia jual kerepek sambil cakap yang anak dia dua orang OKU and dia cari makan jual kerepek je and she's a single mother, well thats what she said and of course la, aku dengan paranoid aku yang x sudah..suka sangat pikir buruk dulu..then she showed me her child's picture yang meruntun hatiku..haa...terus aku beli kerepek makcik tu...pastu dia pon citer la about pendatang asing yang sgt senang dpt duit kat Malaysia ni bcoz of hati malaysian y sgt la pemurah walaupon mula2 paranoid...cam aku..lol..and dia pon citer la about macam2 ragam peminta sedekah termasuk yang menyamar buta...


so.....lets go back on what happened in the lrt..so aku dengan pikiran yang memang dah set that guy menyamar buta, merenung dia dengan tajam...sekejap je la sebab risau orang lain pikir ape plak...pastu 3 station  before station aku, aku tengok that guy bangun n terus rushing kat pintu cam dia rushing kat seat tadi...pastu aku lg double syak y dia ni memang berlakon buta..ada sowang pompan tepi that guy pon tengok je that guy tercegat depan pintu nak tunggu stesen seterusnye..so dia dengar la announcement about the next station.of course, he's not deaf, just "blind"...tetibe, bila dah sampai stesen tu, aku perasan sesuatu yang pelik..amat pelik...

apa y pelik?? because that lrt memang dah stop tp pintu y that guy tunggu untuk bukak tu still x bukak2...yeahh...of course...dia salah pintu...sebab dia memang BUTA!!! pintu belakang dia yang terbuka and pompan y berdiri sebelah that guy pandang aku cam ada hubungan telepati lak ngan aku, cam dia tanye aku, patot ke kita btau that guy yang dia salah pintu? Ya Allah, aku rasa malu sangat..malu y teramat coz pikir negatif pasal dia..then, mungkin dia dah rasa pelik, dia pusing belakang and terus keluar kat pintu lagi satu...(T.T)..i was really stupid...

sampai office, disebabkan datang awal, so ley bukak fb dulu then jumpa video tu..memang mcm betol2 perli aku....(T.T)

so guys, memang ada y menyamar buta kat luar sana untuk dapat kesenangan dengan mudah tapi tu tak bermakna semuanya mcam tu n jangan berfikiran nef\gative like me...please be positive...zack, kamu pon sama ok!!!

VICTORIA JACKSON

New beginning....

excited!!!

kalau lah kalau..

kalau cakap pasal kalau,
memang tak habis 1 minggu...
masih pelik dengan manusia yang rajin berkalau ni...
kalau menganggap kalau itu sebagai hikmah, takpe..
ni macam menyesal tak tentu pasal,
 menyalahkan takdir..

nak2 pulak, "mengkalaukan" hidup orang lain...

"eh kalau u amik nurse, lagi senang dapat kerja"
"kalau kamu amik course cam anak makcik, comfirm abis blaja terus dapat kerja"

aku yang sensitif? aku yang ego? atau aku yang terlampau pikir jauh?

tak kisahlah kita belajar apa, rezeki bukan ditangan kita, kenapa nak pertikaikan perkara yang kita tiada kuasa..

mungkin aku ada silap, bukan mungkin, ya aku ada silap, tapi silap aku ada hikmah..silap aku kau tak berhak terjah..silap aku tak buat hidup kau susah...

umur aku makin meningkat, aku mesti kuat semangat..
mak abah....tunggu lah lagi sesaat..tapi tidak akan sampai berdekad..

sabor je laa

di saat2 tengah serius mencari kerja, merata2 resume aku sebarkan, berpuluh2 phone number retreived from newspaper, aku called
just to find any available position...baru je tadi, buah hati pengarang jantung la kononnye,
called me and these are the conversation 20 minutes ago..

juan: syg, cepat amik no ni..
zila: no ape.......
juan: cepatlah salin, td b amik kt kawan b...dia nk pakai owg..
zila: oooo....keje pe b..
juan: cam PA dia kot..
zila: huh? ha yela bak sini..
juan: 017*******...
zila: hurm..nak call camne...nama dia pe...
juan: adeh..pe benda ntah nama dia..cam nama b gak..
zila: huh?
juan: azuan gak nama dia...(nada serius gila babi)
zila: ha ok kang owg call..
juan: call taw..tanye dia...kang pape hal bitau b balik..
zila: bley ke call skang...kul 8.30 dah..dia angkat ke nanti..
juan: ok la ni 8.30...dah abis maghrib...
zila: yelaaa...

*hang up the call with him then dial no dia bg....

tengok je skrin fon BB y dia bg ni, rasa bangang tahap cipan...

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* calling....                  *
*                                  *
* L0ve MAxis             *
*                                  *
*                                  *
*******************

he picked up,

zila: nak penampar ke penyepak..
juan: hahahhahaa...

saje je dia nk tgk aku hafal ke x fon no maxis dia..dah tentu2 lah tak...
bertahun kapel ngan dia, aku pakai
digi coz sms n call free for 3 number pilihan hati..bagus kn? so gunalah DIGI...

takpe2..ni tengah cari idea nak kenakan dia..siap la dia...

ganan stail

My cute lil cousin...kitorang panggil dia jipah....she's very2 cute...rasa nakculik bawak lari gi Disneyland...(tetiber)

berikut merupakan bukti kecutean beliau...


sila kagum...







comey kan..comey kan...

divorce..

just got some bad news from someone that i know..its about her marriage..her husband gonna divorce her after live with her about 12 years...its still quite a long time man..how can you do that when u guys already have 3 kids...3 beautiful kids..the older one, i think is about 9 years old.. he said that her wife wasn't his first love..yeah of course...its all because he's seeing someone else...someone that he admitted his first love...its absurd!!!!! i don't get it..i guess I'll never will...if u love someone that u get married to, it means that you're gonna love her/him forever isn't it?

yeah we people always say, "jodoh tak panjang"..but both of you can change it..you seriously can..yeah its easy for me to say though coz im not married yet and i dont have any idea whats gonna happen to me later but i love to remind myself few things that can guide me to have a great relationship with my future hubby...

i really2 feel sad for her..but nothing i can do other than  pray for her happiness..but why?? why this keep on happening to  g0od women like her..its weird when they are so in love before this and their love is not like the picture below..

yeah...their love isn't a forbidden love..love that had blessing from their parents..just because the guy found some other woman that God knows where he knows her, he wanna leave a woman that gave birth to their kids and raise em...

So, ladies, please marry someone that u really love, someone that u really know, someone that never hurt you, someone that u wanna grow old with...make sure you know everything about him, his families, his friends, i mean, their relationship with em...well u would know what type of a guy if u l0oks on how he treats his families and friends..how he manages her anger...what he doesn't like, what he hates so much, everything..then u can live with him..as a Muslim, we have our criteria of a guy that we should married to. 

In my case, i found a guy that i believe would be a better husband for me and our kids someday, but if he really not meant for me, i believe he will be a better husband for whom he really belongs to...Its not that i wanna let him go but everything is in Allah's plan...He already planned everything for me so i just gotta go with the flow..

Dear Mohd Azuan bin Sulaiman, you're the one that i hope gonna be my husband that will lead me to jannah...because our fights all along is just lead to one point...it is that we actually love each other...we worries for small things..things that we shouldn't think of...

 its really happened and its funny though...we fight whose love is bigger...who cares better, who jealous better...LOL

im sure ure the one that will lead me to the right way in life, the one that i wanna grow old with is definitely you..

 

just counting days to the big day...In Sya Allah in two years..im 26...i wanna get married before i turn to be 28!! 

In Sya Allah...Amiinnn....

Done!!

Alhamdulillah...done with hard cover and officially tamat segala susah payah aku selama ni just because of FYP...e-Activity Management system which is supposely dah abis awal tahon lepas, haaa tahon lepas okay..but sebab cik supervisor yang banyak tak puas hati ngan pojek ni, eventhough our examiner boley lepaskan kitorang, dia plak yang banyak ragam..hoho..but then next semester, dia tak jadi pon kitorang punya supervisor, dia pass kitorang kat lecturer lain yang lagi dahsyat!! kena develope back this system using CakePHP framework...bermula dari 0...

pastu kena jumpa that new sv every friday, every week...thats why aku duduk seremban menumpang menyusahkan family orang....aishhh satu pengalaman y aku takkan lupa sampai bila2..

bila dah siap system ni, memang berbaloi2...pujian tinggi menggunung sampai suruh datang balik shah alam untuk propose this system to FSKM...nak guna katanya....we're lucky that ada someone yang boley tolong developekan ssystem ni and ajar kitorang all about cake php...

thanx pada rakan2 yang dah graduate but totally lupakan kitorg 100%...masa susah cari, masa senang, putus segalanye...bukan semua laa but yeahh...some of em....thank u so much to YOU...but doesnt matter..everything's okay now..

so next mission, job hunting...

Girl on fire

i love this cover the most...











the original song  by Alicia keys..

"Girl On Fire"

She's just a girl and she's on fire
Hotter than a fantasy, lonely like a highway
She's living in a world and it's on fire
Feeling with catastrophe, but she knows she can fly away

Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got both feet on the ground
And she's burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
She got her head in the clouds
And she's not backing down

This girl is on fire...
This girl is on fire...
She's walking on fire...
This girl is on fire...

Looks like a girl, but she's a flame
So bright, she can burn your eyes
Better look the other way
You can try but you'll never forget her name
She's on top of the world
Hottest of the hottest girls say

Ohhhh oh oh oh
We got our feet on the ground
And we're burning it down
Ohhhh oh oh oh oh
Got our head in the clouds
And we're not coming down

This girl is on fire...
This girl is on fire...
She's walking on fire...
This girl is on fire...

Everybody stares, as she goes by
'Cause they can see the flame that's in her eyes
Watch her when she's lighting up the night
Nobody knows that she's a lonely girl
And it's a lonely world
But she gon' let it burn, baby, burn, baby

This girl is on fire...
This girl is on fire...
She's walking on fire...
This girl is on fire...

Oh, oh, oh, oh ohhhhh oh oh oh ohhh oh oh oh ohhhh... [4x]

She's just a girl and she's on fire

cover by Ailee

 



cover by chester see!!! LOL i love him...u should check out his channel on youtube. 'chestersee'

 

Well THIS is the girl..

The Tower

salam....

lately ramai plak yang berebut nak belanja tengok wayang...ari tu dah layan "minyak dagu", tak berapa seram pon...mungkin upcoming movie "minyak angin" lagi seram agaknye..lol

so rabu lepas ucu ajak gi star mall (memandangkan starr mall mentakab tu je la mall yang megah sangat katanya)..tapi parking lot serabot....tak fully siap pon mall tu..

what i could say with this movie is..well its just something yang perlu dibanggakan oleh rakyat2 korea coz movie ni dah boley setanding dengan disaster2 movie from hollywood..sedey+bedebor+kelakor pon ada...

cuma agak typical sama cam other disaster movie...mesti ada sowang yang akan berkorban untuk owg2 lain....fuuhh terharu...cuma zaman skang ni ada ke lagi manusia camtu? manusia yang tak pentingkan diri?? huhu...movie ni mengingatkan aku kat 1 lagi movie korea y aku suka...hyundai wave ke ape namenye..lol...pasal tsunami tu..haaa cakap pasal tsunami, "the impossible" pon best gak...citer yang aku nanti2kan...citer about a family yang survive masa tsunami kat acheh dulu...coz tsunami = salah satu bencana alam paling aku suka..giler kau..suka bencana alam..aku kagum, bukan suka cam nak kena kat batang hidong sendiri..hoho...

kalau korang dah tengok "after life", ada gak scene tsunami tapi x seREAL "the impossible"..



jap..panjang lak aku membebel...tower dalam citer ni cam KLCC pon ada...kan bagus kalo malaysia yang buat dulu movie ni...konon KLCC yang terbakor cam movie ni..tapi jangan bagi razak moheden tu direct...abis kang...lol...disebabkan idea nak wat movie about camne kalau KLCC runtuh dah di amik dek citer korea ni, maka industri perfileman malaysia perlu wat movie tajuk "aku lagenda"..cam citer i am legend...teringin nak tgk suasana KL bila dah xde owang...biar aku direct..pelakon dia, mustafa maarof...sebab ensem...

so nah trailer...





tengok...jangan tak tengok...


p/s: lusa juan nak belanja tengok "MAMA" plak before balik ke seremban...yeayy...(motif bitau??)

my dream job....

salam...

waahhhhh dah 13/1/13...23/1 tarikh penentuan bagi aku.....tarikh pe? dah settle baru aku citer k..alaaahhh bukan penting pon korang nak tau sekarang...


cakap pasal keje impian aku...haa aku tak terpikir pon nak keje pe....tapi yang aku paling pikir tu suasana aku kerja tu nanti..ngehngehngeh...

mari mulakan...

1) Bandar..

aku nak kerja kat tempat yang busy, yang serabut...paling kurang pon KL kalau tak dapat New York...amboih kau....

ni contoh kat new york...taxi gossip girl..lol

2)Jalan kaki..

haaa....aku nak kerja aku tu dekat ngan umah impian aku..pastu aku boleh jalan kaki je tiap pagi..perghh sangatlah sihat impian aku nih...

aku nak jalan dalam community yang cenggini...nampak professional je..hehe

contoh kat tokyo, japan...memang nampak serabut tapi bley tgk gelagat orang tiap2 hari pastu citer kat office mates..hikhik

3) Coffee

haahaa....ni Anis and pipah mesti dah tau...sebab aku plan nak beli coffee from anis's cafe every morning...aku nak tempat kerja aku tu lalu kat anis punye cafe and ada sowang pekerja dia yang jaga depan pintu cafe tu dengan a cup of coffe for me...tiap hari, lain2 coffee....pastu aku berjalan ke office ngan gaya cam kat bawah...

jangan ngorat i...dah lambat ni..

yeah..she's pippa middleton walking on the street with the beautiful boot!! kuat berangan lah kau z...

takkan ada yang berani langgar...i pompan cantek...

jap2...nanti i sampai...on the way nih....hihi

pastu kena ngorat ngan anak bos..."owh ..please i love my juan"..lol

eh jap..aku rasa ynag aku tulis ni bukan keje impian tapi "perjalanan ke kerja" impian....haha...whatever...korang rasa tercapai tak impian aku nih??



Amiinnn..................

Entah mana silapnye....
Entah apa dosa....
Entah apa hikmahnya....

semua serba tak kena....
dugaan sangat besar bagi aku...

hurm but i know one thing...

maybe its a lil bit late...but its never too late.....never... 

and i believe in this........