Him...

he's handsome..
he's naughty but i kind of like it though..
he's stylo...
he's c0ol..
he can sing too..i love his voice..
i know him since i was born...
i spent all my childhood with him n zul..
but i like zul more...i told him that..but he doesnt mind..
we eat together..
we crying, laughing, together..
we even sleep n have our bath together..
he laughed when i fall down n hurt my knees..
coz he's the one that pushed me...yes...he's really naughty...

he love pulling my hair so many times...
but then he'll put a flower on my hair..n smile...
he shot me once...but im not dead..coz he used the water gun..
i do hate him..hate him so much...but because of that,
i love him..love him so much..
i never tell him that...
i should tell him that i love him...
as a cousin...
as a friend...
im proud to be a part of his family..

i still remember his favourite song..

Seingat aku
Kita pernah bertemu dulu
Di satu pesta keramaian

Anggun wajahmu
Menjadi perhatian
Dan hatiku juga berkocakan

Bagai lena yang diulit
Mimpi bertemu
Ingin ku jadikan mu penyeri
Warna hidup ini

Oh tiada terbanding indah
Sewaktu bersamamu intan
Hilai tawa terpancarlah
Oh sinaran keinginan

Ingin dikasih
Seperti insan sedang berkasih.. oooh

Kau telah isikan
Ruangku yang kekosongan
Jadilah seorang insan
Yang penuh dengan pengertian

Yang amat mengharukan
Kalimahmu luahan dalam
Bukan sekadar puisi ciptaan
tapi tulus ikhlas dan kesungguhan..oooh

i'll never ever forget this song..

there's once time when im 21 years old n he's 22, he brought someone home..not my home but my grandma's...he introduced me to her...she's pretty...really pretty...yeah...he deserve a pretty girl like her...im jealous!!! i really do...but yes...i never tell him that...well..i dont want to..what for?? i thought maybe im jealous because he didnt being naughty anymore..he was like forget everything..i really want him to pull my hair that time..lol...

yesterday...i got a call..kena tulis malay lak

mak call...

mak : dengan nada ceria n gembira.."ila watper tuh??"

ila(aku r tuh) : "x watper...naper mak"

mak : "kamu balik biler?"

ila : "ahad ni la mak...ila abis paper petang sabtu...naper mak...."

mak : " ha...abah cakap x dapat amik kamu.."

ila : "huh.."

mak : "hehe...x la...ni mak nak bitau...*senyap*...................kamu kenal eddy??"

ila : "huh? eddy? cousin ila?" *pehal mak ni xkan x kenal lak...<---aku ckp lam

hati hah...kenal....naper...dier nak kawin da ker<---jeles.."

mak : "..............*senyap*..........dier accident...semalam....."

ila : "....................."

mak : " meninggal.........."

ila : "eddy?!!!!! anak pakde???? cousin ila????!!!"

mak : "a ah la...dari KL..dier bawak moto..keta langgar....da nak sampai
umah...da kat simpang mempaga...."

ila : "...*menggeletar*...mak tipu.."

mak : " k la...mak nk bg tau jer..."

ila : "....:'( "

mak letak tepon....

mak xnak dengar ila nangis kan...xper mak...ila x nangis lepas tu.....tapi lepas ila bitau housemates ila, ila nangis....sikit....pastu ila da okay...tapi petang tu ila call kakngah...mak x bitau kakngah lagi eh...ila da bitau...kitorang nangis sama2 mak...pastu malam tu ila mandi...ila teringat...ila nangis lagi...baru je malam sebelum tu ila cakap ngan housemate2 ila, best nangis lam bilik air...ila penah berebut seluar pendek ngan dier lepas kitorang mandi...mak ingat x...suar pendek bunga2...biler malam, ila berebot bantal pelok lak...dier amik bantal ila...tapi zul akan rampas balik n bagi kat ila...ila pelok n tido...pagi esok, ila nampak eddy lak yang pelok...

mak ingat x masa kat rumah tokwan kat kampung sertik bentong? ila tido...tepi dia...mak suruh tido jauh lagi...mak cakap ila da besar...memanglah..ila da darjah 5 kan mak...dia darjah 6...ila pejam mata...tido...ila bukak sikit mata, ila nampak eddy pon pejam mata...ila tido...tapi terjaga..ila bangun n tengok yang ila tido lesak...patotlah ila bukak mata je nampak kaki eddy...sebelum tido tadi nampak muka dia...ila bangun...pandang muka eddy...dier cam senyum...ila tau dier wat2 tido...tapi dia x dapat tahan gelak kan mak...so dier senyum sambil pejam mata..

esoknya, 1 hari dia gelakkan ila kan mak...dia bitau sumer owang ila tido lesak/lasak/ganas/x sopan/cam laki/cam budak kecik...

skang nie....dier da xder...ila ader zul jer...memang ila banyak cousin lain tapi eddy ngan zul yang ila paling rapat dulu dari kecik...ila xsempat bitau ila suka dier mak...dia da pergi...ila x dapat tengok dia lagi tiap kali raya...ila x dapat borak n gelak biler ingat masa kecik2 dulu...

eddddddddyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy..............

ila akan sentiasa doakan kesejahteraan eddy kat sana..Allah sayangkan eddy...

Dia amik eddy dulu....

AL-FATIHAH...